Too much to write about

I feel like a lot has happened since I last posted, but I don't know how to talk about all of it. I guess these past three weeks have been times of high emotion for Courtney. Sadness, frustration, disappointment, and happiness are just a few of what I have been experiencing. I have been trying to figure out what God is trying to teach me right now. And why He is allowing me to be an emotional basketcase at the moment. Some areas of my life are wonderful. I have an amazing boyfriend who cares about me and honestly is just the best thing that has happened to me since moving back to Atlanta. I just signed a lease for a very fun apartment with a very fun roommate, and I am thrilled to live on my own and settle in somewhere!!! But, I am still working part-time, with horrible weekend hours. I did not get the job that I felt was a great fit for me that I had been wanting for over a month. The most recent, most definitive interview went well, they thought I was "delightful", but they want someone with more experience. I am trying to get more experience, but until someone hires me full-time, there is nothing more I can do. It's a very frustrated position to feel like you are always having to proove yourself. I just want to work the hours that normal people work, and have weekends off like everyone else. Is that too much to ask? But alas, I must be thankful because I am in the field of work that I have been pursuing since I was 16 years old, and I will eventually be in the perfect area, working the perfect hours, I must be patient and it's so hard! I get tired of being patient, and I get tired of trusting His timing. The job isn't the only reason I have experienced the more negative emotions, but it is the main source of frustration and discontent in my life. Pray that I will see the positive more, pray that I will be diligent doing the work that God has called me to do, and pray that I will learn and be open to what God is trying to teach me, that I will moldable to His will.